mylow10

I have done so many things that I end up regreting. Even things from over a year ago. I lost my very best friend in the world, Steph, and I have tried to fix it but she won't let me. Even if we aren't friends anymore, even if we just talk sometimes I would feel better. I am trying to right all the wrongs I have done before I graduate and move away. I want to mend every friendship that I have ruined. I want to fix every lie I have told and repay everything I have ever taken. I want to earn back trust.Right now I only have 2 true friends. My new friend Parker and my boyfriend for just over 10 months, Cody. But Steph was my best friend. I told her everything. She had my back no matter how stupid I was.We joked and we just had fun. She was the one person I knew truly cared about me. But I lost her. She doesn't speak to me anymore and I don't know how to fix it. I have given her space, I have apologized, I have done everything I can think of but it hasn't worked. I moved out of that province in Feburary and lost her friendship last year in September. I have hardly spoken to her since. Well I have tried but she doesn't respond. I need advice. I just want my best friend back. I'm so sorry Steph. Please forgive me.

Today is mine and Cody's 10 month anniversary. I am so happy! I'm glad that we have survived this long in our long distance relationship. It has been fun. I love him so much! 

Today is mine and my Cody's nine month anniversary. It is a long distance relationship but I am very happy with it. As soon as I graduate I am able to move up to where he is and live with him. I miss him. I saw him valentines day and that was the first and last time I ever saw him. But I love him. I talk to him a lot. Happy anniversary baby. 

I hate being bullied. I don't understand why it am bullied. People say it is because they are jealous of me. But is that always the case? Sure I am pretty. Sure I am more smart than half the students in my grade. But I am not rich like them. I am not popular. I have my own style. I don't lie to people when they ask my opinion. I am shy and I can be quite outrageous. I am who I am. I just wish people didn't have a problem with it. I am not changing who I am for anyone. The only person who loves me and accepts me for me is my boyfriend. I would never change myself for him and he doesn't expect me to. 

I found out yesterday that my boyfriend's hair is not red, it is in fact, maroon. The way he said it the first time was so gay. Since then I find pleasure in commenting on his "maroon" hair often. He is so silly and I love it. His hair does look good. And he makes me smile. My baby is my everything and I support him no matter what.